Are you here to stay?

i try to think of the perfect words to say.
to keep you here to stay.
i feel as if i love you is worn and dry, but what more can i say?
what other way is there to express how much i really love you?
you're so far way..i just want you here.
in my arms which are in yours.
i want to believe this will work.
i want to believe what we say will not just be words unaccompanied by actions.
i give you all of me naively.
And hope you take my heart and keep it safe in your hands.
i hope to god this isn't a tease made by life.
a tease at to what my life could be but never will be.
nothing ever seems to work for me..how are you?
it blows my mind you're still here.
still wanting me.

You're worth waiting for ^_^

yea..so there has been a lot of really great and exciting emotions in me lately :)
all caused by one person..hes the greatest........i can't even begin to describe how much i feel for him.
this whole thing was an oppurtunity that im glad i took ^_^
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you found me by chance...luck...fate..

whatever it was it was the best thing thats ever happened to me.

i never knew i could know someone so well with only a short amount of time

never thought that i would fall as hard as i did

but i did...more like i have.

everything just seems so perfect.

you seem perfect.

your the part of me ive been missing for a while now

your the something that makes me happy to be alive

late night conversations and texting until we fall asleep

its a beautiful part of life ive never really gotten to experience

i hope that this will one day be more than words on paper

i hope that one day i will get to truly be yours

in your arms..on your lips.

we're both half of a whole that is undeniably worth a lifetime

i want this to last forever ^_^

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SONG OF THE DAY! <--- link  First Day of My Life - Bright Eyes <3

i honestly have been listening to this song on repeat for days now ^_^

ART OF THE DAY! <--- link to my deviantart profile :) check it out and give me some feedback :D

this is one of my photographs i did a while back...

and it still makes me feel all proud every time i look at it lol

a life full of wasted opportunities

for a friend..i doubt they will ever read this but on some happenstance they do...i know you can get through :)

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life has a funny way of finding you even when you don't want it to

you search and search for the right things to say but they're always wrong.

you don't want to say to much cause then you feel like you'd be waisting his time

you don't want to sound dumb for saying what you feel 

because he might look at you like you're way off into left field

it happened so suddenly you could barely catch your breath

but as you slowly start to breath again you realize that theres always going to be an end

an end to everything that is good, everything that is bad

an end to the sadness or even the happiness at that

so why not live for now and not for then?

live for the feelings that a screaming at you deep from within

realize that fear is a feeling that will pass and that the only way to truly know is if you ask

living with no regrets sounds like an impossible thing to do

but living like that can get you through

all those wasted words and pointless feelings that were never really real

all those late night conversations with him that seemed like they could last forever

but always seemed to end with never

if you were to just ask in the first place then maybe you would know

exactly what it is you needed to know 

before all the feelings, before all the tears

everything you needed to know before all those wasted years

what the intention really was and how to know the difference between love and lust

time will move on and some wounds wont heal

im not saying you're never going to get hurt but if you live for now 

maybe you wont as badly as then

maybe you will see the true person that lies within

maybe you can save yourself from one more gash

maybe if you had asked first then no wasted time would have passed

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i haven't read this through fully and don't really plan to. maybe the rawness of it will help at least one person understand that living a life afraid of chances can only be a  life full of wasted opportunities.

maybe that one person will see that if you just asked what you wanted to know in the first place then maybe you wouldn't torture yourself with the question of which is the right answer.