for a friend..i doubt they will ever read this but on some happenstance they do...i know you can get through :)
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life has a funny way of finding you even when you don't want it to
you search and search for the right things to say but they're always wrong.
you don't want to say to much cause then you feel like you'd be waisting his time
you don't want to sound dumb for saying what you feel
because he might look at you like you're way off into left field
it happened so suddenly you could barely catch your breath
but as you slowly start to breath again you realize that theres always going to be an end
an end to everything that is good, everything that is bad
an end to the sadness or even the happiness at that
so why not live for now and not for then?
live for the feelings that a screaming at you deep from within
realize that fear is a feeling that will pass and that the only way to truly know is if you ask
living with no regrets sounds like an impossible thing to do
but living like that can get you through
all those wasted words and pointless feelings that were never really real
all those late night conversations with him that seemed like they could last forever
but always seemed to end with never
if you were to just ask in the first place then maybe you would know
exactly what it is you needed to know
before all the feelings, before all the tears
everything you needed to know before all those wasted years
what the intention really was and how to know the difference between love and lust
time will move on and some wounds wont heal
im not saying you're never going to get hurt but if you live for now
maybe you wont as badly as then
maybe you will see the true person that lies within
maybe you can save yourself from one more gash
maybe if you had asked first then no wasted time would have passed
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i haven't read this through fully and don't really plan to. maybe the rawness of it will help at least one person understand that living a life afraid of chances can only be a life full of wasted opportunities.
maybe that one person will see that if you just asked what you wanted to know in the first place then maybe you wouldn't torture yourself with the question of which is the right answer.
